Trying to find my way

[Meghan]

Someone here will chime in on the race analogy so I may as well give it to you now: it is a marathon and not a race. Pace yourself. The other one is: the longest journey begins with that first step.

Good analogies. I think it feels so hard right now because it feels so much like the trip is the defining moment, and that things need to happen NOW in order for anything to change. But I suppose this isn't the be all and end all, and pushing too hard right now is just likely to make things worse. Time to 180 and get a life some more - I could use some distraction and some self-betterment.

To help you, take time to think about what you want and then work on a plan. The DR book will guide you on this. This will help you break up this journey into manageable steps.

I think I might take some time this afternoon to do some goal setting so things feel a little more approachable. Right now, it feels like one huge, awful tangle that I have no idea how to handle, and breaking it down would be useful. I'm hoping DR shows up very soon - it's still in the mail.

If you really are that horrible, selfish and self-focused, I don't think you would be have started this DB journey ; ).

Thanks for the vote of confidence. I have a long-standing tendency to blame myself for everything under the sun, so it's really easy for me to feel like this is all my responsibility, especially when he's blaming me so stridently and things feel so utterly terrible (not that I'm denying responsibility, just that I may be taking it to unhealthy levels).