I had an affair... and I want my Fiancee back

[sandi2]

We've told you and the DB coach told you to go dark. This was your reply on June 13:

I did the DB Coaching program last time and he just told me to go dark, which I did, and it didn't work.

Then about two weeks later you say you've had contacts with her:

So quick update: I've had a few more interactions with my Ex since my last post. She says stuff like "I just need to be clear, it's over."

The woman is through with you! Her friends are trying to tell you (which I assume you've been asking them, too).

Her friends tell me she's still angry and that if there's a chance of reconciliation, it will be a LONG time from now.

Our Anniversary is coming up on July 7. We were going to be on a beach vacation with my family that week. Should I reach out to commemorate it in some way?

Seriously?

It is SO HARD not to reach out to her. I broke NC today with a little "How's all your school work going?" text. She had been stressing out last Sunday over her MBA work, and I dropped off a little food for her (which she appreciated and thanked me dryly for over text).

I broke No Contact on Monday. Big mistake. She is still SO PISSED. She is drawing so many lines in the sand. Her last message said, "I've so f-ing done with this. GOOD BYE."

This reminds of that old Clint Eastwood movie, "Misty". You are obsessed and need help. But you won't listen to anyone, b/c it's too hard!

You don't want her. It's b/c she dumped you....(after she learned you were cheating)....and suddenly you couldn't live without her. When she didn't want you....THEN she was the one for you! Have you forgotten all the things you found wrong that led you to OW? That doesn't seem near as important now b/c you are over-focused on just getting her to take you back. Even if she did, you would cheat on her again.