1st post. Long but please read, help!

[Zues126]

Oh- the big fear. She's not going to be ok financially after the D. Even if she gets half my income that's not enough. If she works it doesn't do much more than cover child care.

D is very, very difficult. Financially. Trying to coordinate time with the children. One on one time with the children, and group time. Frequent time as I have a 3 year old so every other weekend isn't enough.

After wrestling with all the logistics there is no real solution other than to reconcile! Part of me hopes she sees that, how tough this road is, how quick she gave up on the M, etc. But I don't believe that. I think she's suffered and struggled more than I knew. And she won't buckle because things are tough, she'll just get more determined. She's stubborn like I am.

And the scary part is the only way I can see her making it financially is by having some other guy move in. I don't think that's in her character, but man, that would be tragic if it was something she allowed to be free of me. I'm probably just driving myself crazy with 'what ifs', but I'm allowed to do that for a few minutes a day before I turn back to me and the here and now.