GM - hmmm, yeah ... i still get stuck on his words. But I am "aware" of this now. I am not believing that snapping out of his MLC will fix everything... but, I do think it will HELP A LOT!!
Sandi ...
Really seeing his stress and anger in the last few days have led me to believe things are bottoming out for him.. He is super overwhelmed... and is not speaking rationally of things.. He wants vengeance on certain people.
I am not letting it change my course. He clearly stated that he noticed I have been "cold" for the past 3 weeks. I intend on continuing... its much healthier for me.
I told him I was disappointed that he did not recognize my gesture for reconciliation & therefore I had given up... 3 weeks ago. I did not let him know how I currently feel (not once, other than I love him & he loves me back). I am hoping that the conversation just reiterated that I DID let go... 3 weeks ago... and watch me continue. I am not falling back. I repeated several times that I gave up!!! I did not let him "think" that I was still available to him. He can think that if he wants... he kept mentioning that he was not ready, yet! and full of his "i dunno" comments.. he is so confused.... again.. he can think that if he wants... but, I am still on my way.
Sandi... HE keeps saying that he enjoyed our time... I never brought it up... he does. The "dates" he refers to.. is the time that we had to drive my daughter into the city. He was insisting that he travel with me & that we go for dinner while we are down there... he is referring to that. He wanted "time" with me. That time & another when we went for casual beer (after work) and another when we went as a family for dinner in the neighbouring town. He really enjoys (always did) my/our company. Yesterday, he said that he liked the downtown visit the most as he felt the most comfortable, unpressured & fun. I don't know why he keeps saying it.. I guess he enjoyed it...??? I never asked about any of it.. He keeps saying he'd like to have more like that.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
