No we're not doomed at all. To be honest the ex boyfriend literally was someone I probably never would've really noticed or been attracted to by just passing by or even as an acquaintance.
But after getting to know him, I really enjoyed his company and we loved talking together.
Its just the more solidified and comfortable he became, the more of the "warts" came out, and they're some pretty stinky warts! I realized that living with those warts would just be me compromising myself just for the times he would act like the other beautiful person I've come to know. Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde! I just can't do it.
You know, Im an adult child of an alcoholic. It was clear boyfriend is a functional alcoholic a few months ago, which I did speak to him about. The mood swings are part of it.
Yet there was something so familiar about him... and the mood swings and the highs and lows I would feel with him. It was like being with my mom again, but I had forgotten how intense it could be when Mom was drinking. WOW. And there I was again, trying to deal with the alcoholism.
I tell ya, eve though I've had to end this relationship, the learning lessons I've had through it all are just amazing! Quite frankly Im grateful for it because Im really learning so much about myself.... like Im finally able to unravel my own mind for once!
