Thank you for the encouragement. I have meditated, prayed, hypnosis, EDMR, exercised, pulled weeds until my wrists hurt.

I have dedicated myself 100% to my DD 18 - who is in great pain from her fathers choices. Just because they are 18 does not mean they are still not children.

I know I am low and spinning. It was just yesterday he was so contemptuous, evil- he seemed smug about his affair and my pain.

He has to stop pushing me. I get anemia really bad. I hope I don't wind up in the hospital again. I can't seem to stop losing weight -- I force myself to eat 3x a day.

Me: 48
H: 48
Married 26 , together 30
D1: 21
D2: 18
"Happily Married" until BD
4 weeks later: "Im talking to someone"
No papers filed.
Attempting 180, finding it difficult.