Went to MC yesterday. Seems last time W was there she's saying that she does love me. But in person with me she holds back. She deleted some intimate pictures I had of her on my computer a month ago. I undeleted them. Last week I was away for the evening and she went on my computer again and found them. She was upset that I still have them after she had asked me to delete them months ago. I don't recall her asking me that but she insists and now she's upset that I didn't. She claims I agreed to delete them, but I don't recall saying I would. I remember her saying she didn't like me having them. Anyway, I just deleted them yesterday and told her that I did. Maybe that'll help rebuilding trust. At least on my part. I still have a suspicion that she's in contact with OM, but I think I just could be mind reading. MC seems to think it's over and things between us seem to be improving very gradually so maybe it is over. Still she won't show me her phone. Maybe there are other reason for that - not ready to give up control of her last piece of privacy. She said she is suffering burnout and needs a break. She says she has to find herself, and regain her identity. She says I still need to work on myself. She is still harbouring anger and is stuck with that anger, but she says she's ok to be stick because she realizes it's part of the process and she'll get unstuck in due course. In the meantime I'm still working on myself. Keeping fit and happy as I can be. Being calm, cool and collected at all times. I hope asking her to stay the night with me at our home for our anniversary doesn't come off too much as pursuing. I only asked once. I won't ask again. We'll see.
M: 59 W: 53 M: 9 yrs T: 14 yrs No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine) W moved out 11/18/2013 D-Day 12/14/2013 W moved back home 12/1/2014
