You are NOT an idiot for wanting to believe that the person you entrusted with your heart really meant what he said. It's called HOPE.
And even though on this board we try to discourage expectations, it's human nature to feel hopeful when the sun peeks through the clouds.
Your situation has progressed so fast; I don't know how you're handling it as well as you are.
You're human, and you're in an awful situation that you had little choice about. It's OK to be sad, OK to be angry, OK to cry and curse the gods for what's happened.
As far as texting him, it was as benign as it could be. He can take it however he wants.
As far as your M is concerned, it's not over unless you want it to be. All the things that have happened are just changes which you will adapt to.
I don't know the laws in your state, but just because he wants a D, doesn't mean you need to give it to him! People get this wrong all the time. Not to say you fight him tooth and nail over the napkins or anything, but you certainly don't need to buckle under pressure to "get it over with quickly", unless that's YOUR agenda.
They say "Time is your friend, use it wisely." That is true.
Sorry for your pain, try not to focus on what he's doing. He probably doesn't even know. It's hurtful, yes, but you'll go on.. and you will get through this.
--GG
Me 54 Him 63 M 23 T 29 0 Kids Funny Farm of Rescues 12/12 OW-- 5/13 ILYBINILWY: A denied 9/13 Proof OW: ENDED 2/14 Got D papers on my BD I kicked him out for my sanity 9/14 He wants to "talk"?
