Moving away from quick fixes: I spent a large part of 2013 reading and trying out many different "Save Your ..." marriage and relationship books and resources. I was not diligent though. I was impatient and looking for quick fixes to get W from her hostile funk and us back together again, moving forward with our lives.
This did come back to bite me and most likely caused our situation to deteriorate further. Now, I have made a commitment to focus on the DB method as my primary approach. My reading and resources have expanded from relationship saving to self growth and healing.
From saving my marriage to healing and having love for myself: My WAS phase was more than a reaction W's nagging. I was unhappy professionally, I was unhappy personally. I can see W's growing fear of seeing the spark go from my eyes based on conversations where she tried to get me to change jobs, take time for myself, pursue my passions.
My focus was on getting us back together. My focus now is to be the best man I can be. I am praying intently that W is a part of my future and the main reason I am here. I know that there is a possibility that this may not happen. I am not yet at a place where I can say that I am fully okay with that. My timeline and plan are helping me to ride out moments of fear, doubt, tiredness and pain.
M:36 W:34 T:9,M:4 Me,WAH:7/2011 My apology:12/2012 Her,WAW:01/2013 ILYBINILWY:4/2013 W's EA:5/2013 Sep:9/2013 2nd EA signs:03/2014
