Cross country DB with WAS

[Anders]

Journal:

It has been 3 months since that nasty argument W and I had. Nine months since we first separated. A good time to recap and take stock of where we are.

Recap:
2011-2012: I am the walk away spouse. Frustration about not feeling heard and feeling disrespected. I told W I had given up on trying to address issues I felt were in our M and I was leaving it up to her to bring them up when she was ready. I didn't leave our home but was emotionally gone. I was constantly angry and frustrated with W. I have constant fantasies about taking time away by myself to go to a lake side cabin and just be.

August 2012: W leaves for work in another city. Plan is for us to have LDR because of work, and for me to move there in a year. Visit are every 6 weeks or so.

October-November 2012: I 'wake up' inspired by a life coach and changes in my lifestyle. I'm hit by an overwhelming sense of realization and shame about just how badly I treated W during my WAS phase.

December 2012: I give W a letter detailing all the things I am sorry for that I did in our marriage & relationship. W receives this very positively.