yesterday i felt actually sick to my stomach thinking of talking to h on phone. why? just anxiety - over what? idk.
Nero, I think the anxiety is normal. This man is deeply hurting you. A part of you is sending you warning signals, "Danger!" I think it's natural to feel anxiety when communicating with someone who has abused you so profoundly...much like a person feels anxiety when faced with an attacker in a courtroom.
The thing is...think about who he is really. He is a mere mortal who obviously has a lot of flaws...one of which is NOT seeing how beautiful you are. :-)
Take the power you are giving him and send it back in your own direction.
It seems to me that you have a lot of anger and frustration and pent up feelings about how you've been treated and you abuse yourself with your own powerful feelings.
Just my two cents.
Much Love,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
