Hoping for positive changes

[artsy]

Just documenting before I forget and I'm about to go "off the grid" until Sunday:

I am going camping tomorrow: it's a first for me! I'm nervous and excited. Prior to BD I had zero interest in it. But, my friends invited me, and it's an opportunity to get out of this house for 5 days. I'm taking it!!!! Lol! My ex MIL (xH1) paid for all the supplies (she's amazingly supportive and generous). So hopefully it goes well because this is something I can afford to do!!!

Note: I've heard from H more the past 2 weeks than the last 6 months combined. Most of it had to do with logistics of "the car" incident, but there have been random niceties, as well.

For example, he emailed me a copy of the insurance card for the truck with the message of " Hi!!!!" So, I responded in kind with a healthy "thank you" and a pic of our little dog sitting in the car on his way to get groomed.

He responded later with :" he is so cute! Thank you for the pics it made my day!"

I did not respond to that email, but he forwarded another email from his mom later. He had forwarded the pic to her and she replied she missed her grand-dog. (His parents used to take the little dog for a few days every once in awhile because they adore him, but don't want to get a dog of their own).

So, I responded that they can take him for the week while I'm camping (I was hesitant on sending that- not sure how he would react to the camping news. But, I need so done to watch the dog and it's the truth, so I threw it in there.)

He texted back about 4 hours later wanting to know specifics about my camping trip, so I told him. He then waited until the next morning to respond with: awesome. Take bug spray.

I didn't want to tell him about camping for 2 reasons:
1. I don't want him to think I'm doing theses things to impress him. I'm not. I wouldn't have even told him if I didn't think there was a chance his parents could take one of the dogs.
2. I think he's a bit annoyed, and I think I would be too. He has always enjoyed camping but I was never interested in it. But, again, this is the only vacation I can afford and my friends invited me. I'm a different person than I was 6 months ago.

So, I'm not sure when I will hear from him again. His silence could be him disappearing again, or it could be he's just assuming we're camping so there's no point in texting, etc. Not sure, won't ever know.

I can't control what he thinks, though. So it is what it is.

Also, he texted my D12 the next day wishing her a fun camping trip. He has also contacted her more the past 3 weeks than he has in 6 months.

MLC side note: he has reconnected with his parents and daughter (who he completely ignored for 3 years). Perhaps he is trying with my D12....? Perhaps. Perhaps not. Just documenting.

Carry on...