i know you both are absolutely right- we're limited ONLY by what we think we "can't" do. funny how easily i can believe this and tell my neices the same thing- and i do feel it's true. (finding hard to apply to self and actually become something different)
I think i am a bit worn down by the past few years - mom's death & seeing up close how each day may be our last - and my inability to just jump up- hate h's guts and walk away without a shred of doubt.
i hate that i can't yet view lonliness as a better option than this life. i know i have it really good in a million ways.
i'm bummed to not have "love" as i always thought I did - to feel it. im just a bummer this morning- so i'm going out in garden spread that darn mulch and hopefully work it off.
