Funeral for a husband, love lies bleeding

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Thanks for your kind words. Cc,I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and hope you do just treat it like any other day. Those mantras can really help when you feel yourself slide a bit. And the one about your STBX having all the good things you wish for yourself, I've been saying that for like two months and sometimes it just makes me feel better for having said it. Like I'm taking the high road in all of this.

Yes, the kid connection I think, while it must be extremely difficult to deal with as a parent, does tend to carry some weight with most MLCers, IMHO. It gives you a reason to have some contact with the WAS/MLCer. Because I don't have that reason, I hear next to nothing. As of today, all I can say is 'Oh well, nothing I can do for him, just work on myself.' And I do think I have finally dropped the rope, however, I say that with caution b/c I've been here before and then whoops! Something pulls the rug right out from under my feet. Part of the rollercoaster ride.

As for the Rebuilding book, yes, TL used it - she recommended it to me. It really is good. I also have been reading The Journey From Abandonment to Healing - even if you don't have other issues with abandonment, this book helps with the type of abandonment we have experienced.

Like you, I have struggled doing the work it takes to get through this, but hang in there my friend. I know it feels some days like you haven't accomplished anything at all, and then all of a sudden one day you just feel different. I feel like I am getting my power back, the power to take my dignity back. Do you see a IC? It is well worth it if you can find someone you are comfortable with.

Well, I just want you to know I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and will check in. Prayers of strength for you tonight. Talk with you tomorrow. ((((( )))))