one day at a time

[twinmom]

My other thread was locked so time to start a new one.

I feel like I am starting from square one. H is still here on the couch. The baby's room is right next to the living room so he takes care of her all night only bringing her to me when she is hungry. I struggle to detach as H joins us for dinner every night, and pretty much all family activities. The only thing he doesn't do is go to church. I am very curious about this. I don't know why he joins us for movies/dinner out/festivals/evening walks but won't go to mass with us. I don't ask him to go to anything and won't ask him why but it does make me wonder.

I have not looked at his phone in at least 3 weeks so I have no clue if he is still trying to get OW to give him another chance, nor do I really care. I just try to be as friendly/unemotional as possible. I have so many flashes of anger/almost hate and it is so hard not to lash out at him.

I do not bring up R talks but I fear that H thinks we are good friends because he is out of sight out of mind type person so I could use a little advice in this area.