The morning sun is shining like a red rubber ball.

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks, Matt.

I am really having problems today. I am just so angry. This whole thing just makes me sick. I am shaking I am so angry.

You would think after all I have been through nothing would faze me. Wrong. I know everyone says I should count my blessings he still wants to be part of their life. J only wants something that will benefit him. He doesn't want to be called a deadbeat dad. As long as he has more than weekend placement he can tell everyone that he is a "good" dad. He isn't a "good" dad. Just because you aren't a drug dealer and because you don't want to pay child support doesn't make you a good dad. You could have 100% placement and still be a deadbeat dad.

I am just livid inside and I have no control over anything J or OW do. It makes me sick that my kids get no reprieve from this woman. I feel like screaming.

I am not sorry. I am angry, dammit and I have every reason to be. I am trying to work through it. If I just ignore it the anger will explode.

WH