I have changed in terms of appreciation and i never question her anymore.. i try to be as friendly as possible and enjoy the time with her. Im just trying to be happy and trying to extend my happiness onto my wife.
reason i say i dont know if i want to stay is because i feel really hurt and betrayed by her speaking to that son of a b-itch. She spoke to him for 6 months. Yeah they were friends but behind my back? If that was me she would have accused me of cheating and probably stabbed me.
Ive been meditating at my mums and to be honest ive felt so happy. I havnt been this happy for awhile.
Ive started to write songs again that i havnt done in awhile.
Joined yoga class to help with breathing exercises at my gym.
been going gym during lunch everyday and pumping them irons. Oh boy it feels so good and again at night but for cardio.
dont want to stop going gym to be honest.
re read divorce busting again.
I want it to work but i dont want this pain anymore. I feel disrespected and at the same time guilty for neglecting her.
i love her and want it to work so ill keep trying.
i did listen to you mrbond i always stated the wrong things i did so you guys can advise me on the the worst things i did.
i hardly mentioned the good things i did. I shouldve kept a journal as the book says. Oh well.
i want to build a solid foundation. Shes going counselling every wednesday and said shes going so she will never ask for a divorce again or put me through that.
