I know that I am 180 -- leaning toward total NC. Very limited.

But for some reason I want to tell him now. In fact, I don't think he knows, everyone that I have exposed to loves him very much. No one would hinder him "coming home". Tho many do not understand...

This sounds like a pathetic manipulation to get him home, right?
.... so I will file 86 the idea.

Me: 48
H: 48
Married 26 , together 30
D1: 21
D2: 18
"Happily Married" until BD
4 weeks later: "Im talking to someone"
No papers filed.
Attempting 180, finding it difficult.