Trying Again

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Just a little journaling. Not expecting to hear from W until the kids get back, I was surprised to get a text from her yesterday. It was just a short conversation about getting the kids some prepaid phones so they could text us while they are visiting family. Spent the day working on some personal projects and then the evening with some friends. The toughest time of the day is right before bed when I look in the mirror and realize how quiet the house is without the kids here and thoughts turn to her. I wish she was still here, but know that only she can make the choice to come back.

Went to church today and the lesson taught was definitely meant for me to hear. I have often had people ask me how I am making it through as they, in a similar situation, would have completely lost it. I guess I can only say that it has been my faith that has pulled me through the toughest times. I know that I had started to lose that prior to things going south in our relationship. I wish it didn't have to be this situation that needed to remind me that my faith is what has helped me be the person that I was when we first married. Hind sight is always 20/20, I suppose. Best to take those lessons and use them going forward, working on being the type of spouse only a fool would leave.