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I guess I looking for help or support on continuing to DB as I have one more MC session which I am thinking will be a closure session rather than a restart for me and my STBXH. He had said in our last MC that he wants me but can't deal with my sisters and my kids. He is also dealing with the hurt I caused him and how I didn't make an effort with his kids. I ended up crying which always upsets him and is not what I should be showing him. He also wants to continue to see each other and it be just between us no one else. He mentioned that he is trying to get to the gray area as he only sees things in black and white and deals with absolutes. I admitted that I didn't see a future for us a my STBXH only deals with absolutes. After that session, my STBXH has not initiated contact like he previously had. My STBXH also said that when I ask for reassurance it scares him and he backs off. I know that I didn't give to my STBXH nor make the effort with his kids and family which I wish I had seen my mistakes so much sooner. I'd appreciate some thoughts. Thank you