i haven't been on forum for awhile- reading around and wanted to say hi and there's alot of "hope" and kindness in your thread this morning. i feel better having read the last bunch of posts.
i guess i'm not "done" yet either. whoeer said life is better with hope and pma- i'm hoping so.
i am not sure ifmy hope is gone- yet i'm still "standing" for want of a better plan/life... idk- i'm still here. i still know hi m.
that's about it- where it all ends? idk- you all sound pretty good and "together" to me- knowing where you're heading- what you want, what you don't want.
i guess i fall into your club- despite my thinking otherwise- i guess there is some stinking little tiny chink of lite down there, somewhere- - ray of "hope"???
YOU SAY: " It still hurts though to think that I waisted my time in a relationship that ended like this. This is what I didnt want to happen to me again, ever. I thought my H (second H) was the one who I would be with for rest of my life, good times or bad times. Im still picking up the pieces of the broken dreams. "
i SAY YEAH - ME TOO ... it's those darn pieces - will it ever end? ya gotta wonder
oh well- trying to stay in the day- no past - no future- not hard to do - i feel too like i've "wasted" a lifetime on someone i may never have known even. may have been a charmng liar forever- nasty and unproductive thoughts (maybe) (true- maybe too?!! ) who can ever know the answer to that one.
anyway- hi and great about the job. if i could ever figure out what the heck state i "live" in- i think i'll be glad when i have a job to occupy me alot of the time and provide the contrast - glad to be home and gone from work.
still floating along hoping to land somewhere (good) - going to go spread mulch - see if i can capture the magic of productivity & sweat - another day to go thru
