Hi all - "was never in love"

[Mat]

So, she picked up all of her stuff today. Think of all the work the house needs, pressure building up at work, the thought that I have to stop hoping and that I may have to build a new life.... I am completely overwhelmed.

This is my worst day so far. In a way I am so sick of being brave and ´taking it welĺ. Accepting that all problems are solvable, that it's criminal to leave without giving me an ultimatum. I'd fly us to Colorado and have an intensive session with MWD! To be so convinced that you never loved someone that you won't ask if you can read some chapters of the book, or go see someone.

To be fair I didn't get the best sleep. But I don't know how to calm down and take a nap I am freaking out.