Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

"Just reading another thread and I think I'm maybe acting 'as if'. As if nothing has really happened, just I'm far more positive than before B day and trying to be pro-active."

Have you REALLY read DB/DR? That's not what acting 'as if' means. Look it up.

I haven't re-read yet, and I get that you have used caps on really. I'm cautious about getting DR out whilst at home in case W finds it, I am able to read & post on the forum on my iPad though as I can quickly quit without raising suspicion if she comes in the room.

What I'm trying to say is, I'm acting as positive as I can, not mentioning R, not starting conversations but responding as I normally would if W does. Being a friend. Being a father.

What worries me is, this is exactly what she wants. She wants me to be a friend and father. She wants all the advantages of a H without the intimacy. And I'm concerned she will think I have accepted this, but I don't know what I should do about it.