"Just reading another thread and I think I'm maybe acting 'as if'. As if nothing has really happened, just I'm far more positive than before B day and trying to be pro-active."

Have you REALLY read DB/DR? That's not what acting 'as if' means. Look it up.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER