GG- that awkward end if the conversation really is frustrating! Hang in there and keep focus on you!
Interesting events today.... H hung out with family and grilled by the pool. Then as I was changing out of bathing suit he came in room and helped me put aloe lotion on. Was clearly getting turned on and kept looking in my eyes like he wanted to kiss me. I hugged him quickly to break the tension and he was holding really tight. Then he did end up kissing me a bit, and tried to have things progress. I took his hands and held them, stopped kissing him, and told him he needed to go take our daughter to her friends 4th party. He said " are you kicking me out?" I said- yes. He then said are you sure? And I again said yes. He went out of room, then came back and said I'm sorry- I know that was too much. I said I'm ok. He said- then why aren't you naked? I laughed and said bye!
Sooooo- I know I set a boundary recently that I would not be intimate with him and it was very hard to stop the process, but I'm not quite ready. That said- I see some steps toward me lately, and his LL is physical touch ( big time!!) so I'm wondering if this may be an opportunity to remind him of our connection. Of course I won't do it if I'm feeling used, and quite frankly I'm enjoying teasing him a little bit but I can't do that forever. For now he should certainly go home thinking about me
Any of the guys on the board want to weigh in for me?
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown
