"Speak Softly and Carry a Big Stick"

[GoatGal]

I have a lot to do today so I need to get off this DBing hamster wheel until tomorrow!

H is coming over to stay tonight to "dog-sit", so one 180 is to make sure the house is clean and inviting.

Everything is *supposed* to look like I'm doing it for myself, just being peachy in his absence. I've also changed some things, hung pictures, claimed it as "MY" space.

GAL: I am going off to an event tonight, dressed to the nines, at a fancy hotel for food, live jazz, dancing, and fireworks on the veranda.
I am meeting a group of friends, but there will certainly be men there of my age who are not part of my group.

I will work on my low-level flirtations... I am NOT GOOD AT FLIRTING! I need practice so I'm going to practice tonight.

Flirting is a 180 for me too.
I'm not looking for ANY R right now, even with H, but I need to learn to work my feminine wiles a little more and not just rely on this killer body, massive intellect, offbeat style, and quirky sense of humor. (Hahahaha.)

H will see me leaving to go out. I don't think he is threatened by this because he knows me and he's seen me dressed up to go to dance events for ten years now.
I think he's confident that I'm not up to anything, man-wise.
Maybe TOO confident!


(If anything, he was peeved when he saw me get my bicycle out. That was something we used to enjoy together. I didn't ask him to tune it up or anything else. What did he do? He got HIS bike out and took it with him. I swear he was saying:
"SEEEEE????? I am going to ride my bike without YOU toooooo!!!!!"
I hope he does!)


Maybe he needs to be shaken up a bit more in the "my wife would never get involved with someone else" area?
I have stated that I would not want to involve anyone I actually cared about in this mess because it wouldn't be fair. I still feel that way.

And I'm not the type for casual hook-ups. Too much self-esteem and too many risks.

But that doesn't mean I can't put my toe in the pool to check the temperature!


Thoughts?

Anyhow, you can bet I will be happy/flirty with him before I go.
I guess I'd just like him to see me the way so many other guys seem to:
As a real catch!



And when I see those fireworks, I'll think "Romance" instead of H's head exploding.


---GG