Hi all - "was never in love"

[Mat]

Well, so happy 4th to all the wonderful American members of this board. Hope you managed to organise yourself a good celebration with people that care about you.

So, feeling odd today. Was feeling really down earlier this morning as my wife is coming to sort through her stuff and remove/throw away hers. I won't be there for that, and I have no friends to go hang out with until late afternoon. Still, I'm bracing for quite a shock.

But then, as I was looking for some place to be, I booked myself tickets for an exhibit at the British library and kind of became giddy with excitement about my new found freedom, and daydreaming of a better future. Unfortunately some of these dreams feature reconciliation. I'm concerned about swings like that.

I think it was driven by an easy morning at work, finding an activity to do by myself that I know I will enjoy, knowledge that I will see friends on Saturday AND Sunday...

BTW, hope you don't 2x4 me, but one of them is the partner of a wife's former colleague. So common friends. I've thought about it, and I cannot just afford to lose even one good buddy (and he's top tier) just in case this results in me being "attached" by proxy, and still achieve GAL. Something has to give.

I have been visualising in my own mind what I will say about the relationship, have got the 37 rules as well as db's take for friends and families down pat. I will be sure to make it absolutely clear that it'll be OK no matter what, no matter whom with.

And I'll do one of my 180s; I am going to ask questions, listen, not interrupt, and not argue. It's time I start appreciating others better and learning from them.

Still giddy. Ah well.