James Bond was also alcohol-dependent with little to no respect for women. So while I get cool, calm and collected leave the rest.

(no offense Mr Bond)

About the rest of your post-when your mind starts giving you doubts, turn it off. You know how to do that. Our minds give us lots of false messages, the problem is we believe the negative a lot more than the positive. Remind yourself of that. Live in the now.

I think it might be nice if you texted her at some point just asking how things are going in a very honest and heartfelt way. I don't remember what they're doing but going on a trip with a 10 and 8 year old can be a challenge, no matter what they're doing. There's always drama.

I think marriage vows should include "taking care of our home and children is not about what I do to help you or what you do to help me. It's what we do as an act of love for our family."

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss