As I stand on this brink, the majority of the time I know I want a divorce, but why can't I just do it already?!
I feel so sure that it's best for everyone, then I get scared. What if it's not?
I don't enjoy H's company. We both deserve more than what we have. I don't want him to hurt. I wish he would have realized he cared while I still did.
I can't imagine the time away from my children while they are with him. And what does it do to them to have to shuffle from home to home? Is it better quality time with both of us separately? Could that be an improvement for them? I am much better with them alone...more relaxed, joyful...
