"Speak Softly and Carry a Big Stick"

[GoatGal]

Thanks, Maybell.

Amish boys are great. Unfortunately they are not able to do overnights!

As for H, since I really started to detach and not lean on him, instead choosing to lean on others, I see a bit of a backlash.

I am still friendly, upbeat--the only change is I am really detaching more and I *think* that may be what he's reacting to.

Part of it is that I'm exhausted. When I get this bone tired with no rest in sight, my positive attitude takes a bit of a dip.

Add in two sick dogs, one now gone, a husband who is acting like someone I wish I'd never met... it's a recipe for frustration.

I have been trying to work out how to bring in some help. I have to be careful that I don't push H's buttons TOO much or there may be more backlash that I'm not yet ready to weather.

If he's this pissy about a bicycle and just sort of letting him go do whatever, how's he going to respond if he is asked to "pay" for work to be done around here?
Or that he thinks I have some guys here doing it?

It hits him right in his "Pride Zone".

I thought about talking to him about it pleasantly, but don't know how it won't come off like a threat.

Clearly he thinks I have nothing better to do all day than all the work we used to share.
Keeps me too tired to find some male company, I guess...?

The other problem is scheduling.
If he were gone for good, not a problem.

It's just hard to get someone on short notice for an hour here and an hour there. It's hardly worth it.

What I'd rather do is get a few guys for several hours on a few weekends to help with some big stuff.

But I KNOW FOR A FACT that will piss H off BIG TIME.

So I'm kinda stuck.

I have had a few people help for free, but it's not a regular thing.

I haven't given up on it though.

If I had some of my own money, that's how I'd spend it.
I thought about asking my mom for some money (embarrassing!) but now she's in the hospital and that plan went out the window.

At the very least, I don't want any helpers here while H is here....

So it goes.


---GG

If you don't hear from me tomorrow, it means I got asphyxiated! I did Google "sewer gas" and yes. It CAN kill you.

Not that he cares, apparently.

I'll leave the windows open and AC off. Hey it's only 90 degrees with 90 percent humidity. Add in a few night sweats and we've got ourselves one SMOKING HOT EVENING!!!