Sigh. Just off the phone with him doing a little bit of kid logistics. He looked awful and scruffy. I miss him. It's hard not to pursue. He asked about family night and I asked if that was what he wanted and he said "I don't know, this is new to me." Then we both kind of chuckled awkwardly. Ended by saying we'd play it by ear.
I just want him to say he's ready to work things out. But I think he needs more time in his man-cave (it's only his second night there, with all the travel) before he figures that out.
I know he was watching me really closely Sunday. I know I miss him and am ashamed of so many things I wish I could take back. I doubt he feels the same way.
Somebody please tell me how this story ends so I can get through the next chapters.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
