I believe you will continue to feel confused and stuck until you are able to separate the personal from the business. You have the two sides so meshed together! You seem to be controlling your outward behavior better. But there is obviously a lot of inner conflict.
Your business "arrangement" does sound a little complicated. He makes all the big decisions, while you work for nothing. You aren't even considered a formal partner? What does he say your role in this arrangement is? Something had to have been said or done to cause you to believe you were equal partners. I understand if you don't want to talk about it, but sounds to me as if he has taken advantage for a very long time.
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It will be quite a while until I am able to leave this business. I am trapped until more inventory is gone. He won't let me out of it & there are road blocks getting into it. Quite complicated
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If you are not a legitimate partner, how he can he stop you? How much of it is "you" afraid to leave? What could you lose? Maybe you could even get a job that paid you a regular salary. I mean, I don't care b/c it's your life. But I hope you will see what has become a crutch.......or a prison, whichever way you look at it.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
