Looking for inspiration

[MrBond]

"So all in all I’m considering this a sorta success. At the very least it’s documentation of what NOT to do."

I wouldn't. What Train explained was very much true about you and your reaction was par for the course.

I've mentioned before that I think you are one of those people who NEED a C to show you what to do and monitor your progress instead of just reading it from a book. You mentioned that you were looking at getting help for that several weeks ago and you haven't done any movement.

If anger was the biggest issue your H had with you, shouldn't that be your priority? Apologizing after doesn't stop you from doing it again. You apologize enough and after awhile they become empty words.