I should add, she also said she was lost and confused when she thought about us. She asked me how I knew she was the one for me, because I told her I don't need to date anybody else to know that. I said that I have found myself, know what and who I want. It took some time, but through some work and thought I know she is the one for me. The feelings I have inside are real, because I have had the time to go through them. She just kept saying I don't know what to do. She is looking for help from someone to find the answer, but it has to come from the inside, I didn't say that, but that's how I got to where I am.
I have had people say the same things to me, go on a date, dump her, divorce her, it's all talk from people that are just trying to make me feel better. In the end I have to find the best for me, not someone else's advice. However, here I am stuck in the middle of a storm, the W is the like a hurricane, the eye is pleasant and peaceful, then the outer edges get more and more violent and hurtful. It's good that she said something, but asking me for advice is getting old. She already knows my answer. What do I do, say sure go date, sure just leave your family? It's just not possible!!
She had to say what do I do like 10 times. I mean really asking me of all people. I just want to go to her and say drop all of this. I am here for you and have been, I just needed the time to find myself again. And pull out of the funk I was in. She needs time too, but seems to be taking the time to get 40 different people to help with all different opinions. I did have to call her that night too, tornado warnings around her area, and she had the kids and was freaking out about what to do. I was more interested in my kids welfare at that time, but again I bit and she just has me by the shorts. So hard to not break down right now. Ugh!!!
