#32: My Power & Detachment: Letting go/BLESSED!!

[makingmagic]

I am realizing that he is informing me for 2 reasons. 1) as an informed partner 2) as a person that he trusts.

Not necessarily in that order. My guess is that it flip flops for him.

I would be extremely upset if he wasn't informing me.

I am not calling or asking him to inform me... I am not behaving as the old MM would with 100 questions either. I have asked a few.

I feel that I am being his "go to friend" over this... and being "here" sends the wrong message. That he still has me.

The message I want to send is that I am interested in this transaction because it affects me & my portion of the business. However, I cannot be your "friend" and support you through this as you pushed me out of it. I am angry about that.

How can I display/send that message? He said he will call me right back, as we just got interrupted on the phone by his RE situation. That was an hour ago... guess, he got further involved and possibly had to leave for meeting with seller? agent? lawyer?....dunno

I feel that being "friend" and listening throughout this is allowing him to still have a piece of me. I do not want him to have ANY of me, other than business (at this time).

I am trying to treat him like an addiction, for now. Fighting an addiction means being strong & saying "NO".... "no" until I am no longer pulled in by the desire to indulge. Much like when I quit smoking 20 years ago. You must fight the urges & say NO, until the moment passes & until the next moment. Until you just don't desire it anymore.

He asked me today if I was going to go with him to deliver a client vehicle. Initially, I had said yes, as this is an interesting client but will now say "NO" because I know that honestly I was going just to have "moments" with him.