today has been a really nice day, a little bit of sadness thrown in, it was fantastic to be there when the twins woke up this morning and goets lots of twinnie cuddles, they loved their presents and we went to an indoor play centre for the morning. we also went to a chain store and bought double of the clothes the boys already had so one set stays at h house and one with me, so the boys feel like both houses are home, not always having to pack a bag, bit of sadness there. we had an easy afternnon at h house, just playing with the kids, early dinner, shower, boys to bed, I volunteered to stay until boys were asleep, because h has hurt his back, as soon as boys were asleep, I left, huge step for me, normally I would hover and wait until it got really uncomfortable, get upset, then leave...tonight I set my own boundary, stuck to it, yay me, small steps, said thank to h for a lovely day, kiss on the cheek, walked out the door. admittedly I burst into tears the minute I got in the car, but hey, he didn't see it, and neither did the boys. I'm trying not to think about Monday, its h birthday and its the first time in 10 years I haven't woken up next to him in his birthday, will deal with that when it comes.
