Just a shame that so much of what I had planned for my and my kids lives was built on her being there as well.
Yes it is, but this is your new reality, so it's time to accept it and move forward with the things in your life you can control. Like those food chewing lessons you've been putting off.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl