She is right. She said she doesn't know herself, when it gets tough, she runs or avoids.
Until she finds herself there is no possibility of a healthy R with me, or anyone.
I want a healthy R. For myself, and my sons.
After much thinking, processing the past and the present, much grieving...
I feel good in that I did give it my best, this standing bit, even she says it is not me, never was (mostly, yes I did contribute to the martial issues). I fixed myself, became a kind, integrated man. A great father. I feel good with myself and this journey, learned a lot, grew my CHD.
I am done standing.
I wish her well, I will of course be in her life due to the kids, there will always be love for her, she did give me many years of love and support. I am grateful for that...and those years and how good they were made it so hard to let go.
But I get it now.
I'm at peace.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
