I guess I'm just not a very patient person. I have always been a high energy "fixer", and I am spinning wheels not being able to do anything except be here for DD 18 and detach.
Going to see my therapist, today. She works with EDMR (trauma), hypnotherapy and talk therapy. I wonder if there is anything she can do for the rumination (at least make it calm down)
She just got divorced herself a year or so ago. She is NOT very positive about marriage building, but that is not what I went for her for. I will spell out my plan ( like I did last week ) but she said last time; "You are in denial of what is happening here" I will flip.
No one better than me understands what is ahead of me. I am i no denial at all about what I have to do. If she can be supportive, great. If not. I will find another....
Yes, I have gotten the talking points of "co dependent no more", before. I don't remember if I read the entire book or not. Will go back and see.
Me: 48 H: 48 Married 26 , together 30 D1: 21 D2: 18 "Happily Married" until BD 4 weeks later: "Im talking to someone" No papers filed. Attempting 180, finding it difficult.
