Wife's mental illness and hard decision

[Lifes Twists]

Yesterday I had to review a draft agreement concerning our daughters that my lawyer drew up.The proposed agreement was drawn up because my wife backed out of a meeting set up between us with the lawyers. The meeting was to discuss the girls and set boundaries and restrictions on their visitation given the situation. I believe my wife backed out because she had resumed drinking and that it could become part of the subject. I actually di not find out about it until after the time for the meeting. Because of the resumption of the drinking, DCF, and the girls safety, the language in the proposed agreement is much stronger than I would like. I can see my wife viewing it as me trying to control things which will lead her to be more angry. I don't have much choice in order to protect the girls and myself from further intrusion of DCF into our lives.

I feel like I am caught between a rock and a hard place. On one hand I see the need to do this for the safety of our children. On the other hand I see it as another wedge between my wife and myself. I am grasping onto one hope that my wifes love of being a mother for her girls will will push her to do what she needs to do to get well.

I sit here tearing up a bit and wondering how to pick up the pieces and keep moving forward.