Trying to stay afloat

[pilot]

Ok you two. As much as it may feel good to have a day to get your emotions out, it is not in the direction you both need to go. Detach detach detach. I get it as much as anyone the hurt and pain you both are in. My W is up in the mountains with my kids and her family. A trip I should be on. And to be flat honest, I did not give it a seconds worth of thought except for the time it took me to type it right here. Sure I would be there if it was up to me, but it is not. I know my kids are having a great time and that is good enough for me. I really wish you both could enjoy the calm I feel right now which comes from detaching. I cannot stress enough how much better my daily life and routine has gotten since.

Thornton, next time you feel like having a meltdown, force yourself to do something else. Force yourself to focus on doing something else, talking to someone else (not R related) or anything to keep from having those emotional outbreaks. Because when you do have them, and you feel better, you will want to have them again to feel better. Find something else which makes you feel better and is more productive to your DB efforts.

You can do it buddy...keep at it!