The morning sun is shining like a red rubber ball.

[wishing, hoping]

Easier said than done.

S told me tonight OW has invited herself to D's party this weekend. She's not invited. I am the one who has planned this party and did all the work. I don't need her interference. But then again if J and her are together now, I am guessing she will show up at all the kids' events now. And I guess I should just suck it up. After all if I eventually become involved with someone I will expect him to be able to attend events with me. I hate being the better person sometimes.

D told me she told daddy not to marry OW because she's afraid she will forget about mommy. J told her that would never ever happen. That made me want to cry. I told her she won't forget mommy because she is with mommy more than she's with daddy. She asked why and I said because I want to make sure you are safe. I asked her if she forgets about me when she's with daddy and she said sometimes. I asked her if she forgets about daddy when she's with me and she said yes. I said it's okay. Mommy is always your mommy and daddy is always your daddy. Even if mommy finds another man to marry daddy is daddy. And mommy and daddy are not going anywhere. It seemed to make her feel better.

S is really upset about OW. He said at first it was her kids and now it is her. I told him I didnt want him to stop telling me about what bothers him, but I wanted him to tell his dad how he feels because I can't do anything about it. Only his dad can. I hope he tells J how he feels.

J called and wants me to come over to his place on D's birthday for a celebration. He has her that night and he said he would get the cake and some balloons. So I'll be over there for about an hour or so. I had the celebration at my place for S's birthday so it's his turn. Friday am I picking up the kids and having them for the fourth for the first time in three years. I'm very excited.

In the meantime this landlord is ticking me off. He still hasn't installed my washer and dryer and the kids bathroom is a mess waiting for the installation. Plus the skylight in S's room is leaking. It's frustrating. Plus there is excessive moisture in my bathroom and the floor is wet and so are the walls. It is gross. I told him about the issues but nothing lights a fire under him. He still has not installed a mirror in the kids bathroom that he said he would install before I moved in.

Feeling rather frustrated right now.

WH