today is crappy day, whatever bug the boys had over the weekend, they've kindly shared with me, I had to be at h house to drop the car to him so he could take the boys to daycare, I did my best to act upbeat, but pretty hard to do when you have ripping stomach cramps, h asked what was wrong, I tried to keep it as low key as possible, as my manipulating through illness has been an issue in the past, girl who cried wolf....so it makes it hard when you truly feel lousy and all I wanted was for him to give me a hug and tell me i'll be ok, he did reach out to touch me, and I had to pull back because If he touches me, I won't want to let him go. i have to pick up the boys and drop them off this afternoon to h, and i feel flat, trying to pull it together, so that they don't see mummy like this and neither does h, any tips or tricks, without looking false??
