Not much to say but I hear you. It hits you hard sometimes, doesn't it? Even on vacation last week there were days when I had to just go up to my room so I could cry for a little while.
Don't mind read about whether or not she's moving on. You don't know what's happening with her or with her daughter either.
I don't know what kind of town you're in, but I know that sometimes you can find a Buddhist center or meditation center that will host classes for a small donation, or even that has them as a "give back to the community" event. It may seem a little out there to go to a Buddhist temple or center but if you can learn some meditation techniques EVERY part of your life will improve. My H was telling a friend last night about what a difference it made to my personality when I was practicing regularly during the time our two oldest children were babies. (so if we hadn't moved away from my yoga studio we would still be happily married???) So I know it makes a visible impact once you get accustomed to it. It definitely is easier to take to with a mentor you trust, however. You also can see if your public library offers community meditation or yoga. I live in a pretty conservative smaller town and we have it, so surely you'll have access to something in Colorado.
I know how much it hurts. You've been doing awesome. There's bound to be a little pushback from time to time. You'll make it.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
