I had a really good day today, felt detached and positive.
I went to the gym after work and then came home and lost it. A huge wave of sadness came over me and I bawled for almost an hour. I can't believe this is happening. Maybe Ive been in denial all this time.
I NEVER would have thought this woman would leave me. She was always head over heels in love with me and willing to do anything for me.
I think back on all the things I did poorly. And I wish I could go back and have a do-over.
I miss her so much it hurts physically. I'm starting to think I loved her much more than she loved me.
I'm so sorry for the pity party. I'm just really struggling right now. I see a lot of people here having some contact with their WAS and I wonder what I'm doing wrong.
WAW has texted me 3 times in 7 weeks. I've followed the rules and never pursued her, I haven't reached out to her, I've given her her space. I just feel she is moving on and realizing that she doesn't have a need for me in her life. And I miss her daughter so much. I'm the only father she's ever known.
