I understand. Rejection and abandonment is a big one of my deals and H did both. Remember, we often attract the same type of person and that's how we end up hurt again and again. Take some time away from needing somebody. Work on yourself and your goals and animals and people. You'll find an inner peace and begin to heal yourself. Later after all this you can date and know what kind of person is good for you. Remember, if a person is prone to run (abandon) he'll/she'll more likely to do it again and again.