aww you guys are so kind to me, thank you so much for your support!! Thank you GB, Tboned and CC CC I will tell her when I visit tomorrow that it's ok to let go. She is still holding on but every day is a little bit worse. She doesn't open her eyes today and is not swallowing well, I think the morphine starts tonight or tomorrow, she can't seem to take a pain pill anymore - the swallowing is an issue. Hospice is supposed to come out today so hopefully they will advise. Everyone keeps saying 1 or 2 more days and it has stretched out it seems. I do tell her I love her every day and she has responded every day but not this morning. She mumbled but it is hard to understand her anymore and she is mostly just sleeping. I do think maybe God was training me Tboned - preparing me for heartache, just a double whammy of it. So far I cried more during the BD process although I miss my mother already because to me she's already gone. I have found wonderful friends and support system through this whole 6 months, I can't believe it's only been that long. Feels like an eternity. This is the longest that has gone by without a peep from the ex, I think it's a month he's been silent. I don't even care about it anymore, would just add to the drama in my life anyway. Just once in awhile it will pop in my head, I have become indifferent towards him. I can honestly say I don't need or want to hear from him anymore because I felt so abandoned and rejected, now I feel needed and wanted by others in my life and I got my self worth back. If it weren't for my mother going through this, I would truly feel happy. I do feel happy but of course sad at the same time since I'm going through the grief process again for a different reason. You guys are so awesome, thank you again, I really have learned so much from this place and could not have grown so much without it. (((hugs)))
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
CC I will tell her when I visit tomorrow that it's ok to let go. She is still holding on but every day is a little bit worse. She doesn't open her eyes today and is not swallowing well, I think the morphine starts tonight or tomorrow, she can't seem to take a pain pill anymore - the swallowing is an issue. Hospice is supposed to come out today so hopefully they will advise. Everyone keeps saying 1 or 2 more days and it has stretched out it seems. I do tell her I love her every day and she has responded every day but not this morning. She mumbled but it is hard to understand her anymore and she is mostly just sleeping. I do think maybe God was training me Tboned - preparing me for heartache, just a double whammy of it. So far I cried more during the BD process although I miss my mother already because to me she's already gone. I have found wonderful friends and support system through this whole 6 months, I can't believe it's only been that long. Feels like an eternity. This is the longest that has gone by without a peep from the ex, I think it's a month he's been silent. I don't even care about it anymore, would just add to the drama in my life anyway. Just once in awhile it will pop in my head, I have become indifferent towards him. I can honestly say I don't need or want to hear from him anymore because I felt so abandoned and rejected, now I feel needed and wanted by others in my life and I got my self worth back. If it weren't for my mother going through this, I would truly feel happy. I do feel happy but of course sad at the same time since I'm going through the grief process again for a different reason. You guys are so awesome, thank you again, I really have learned so much from this place and could not have grown so much without it. (((hugs)))
