Maybe I need to search myself better to know what my real motive is to want to send a D card. Morbidness? Rub it in I can be better than you are-ness? Drama? It bothers me that I dont know my motive. Yikes.
CC, sorry I'm so late for the party, but I agree with everyone else.
I can see from your posts that you are nowhere close to being healed from your journey. Your timeline indicates that your entire turnaround is pretty tight, so I get that. From this comment ^^^^ above, I would recommend you devote all your efforts into discovering more about you and what you need to heal from this path.
Make sense?
Bug is right that you can't force him to see things that he doesn't want to see, especially stuff that brings you pain. You have a lot of ground to cover, and you sound unsettled with most of it. Time does heal that, but so does some old fashioned elbow grease. At the very minimum, have you considered IC and addressing dealing with grief?
Best wishes,
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
