Find some new things. MeetUp is a great free site for finding people (not a dating site) with similar interests.

Does your gym have meditation classes? (I know, you tried it, it's hard.) Sometimes a class is helpful. There's some accountability.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss