New little tidbit. Today we had to meet for the D's, before that she texted about takng a midterm for school. Said she had been crying all morning and couldn't stop. Said she felt, like she let the kids, me, and her family down. I told her we both let them all down, just as much me as her. She said she is so stressed and so overwhelmed, that she cant do it. I just kept up with the you can do it, you can see the good if you want too, but I cant do it for you.
I took the D's to her place to drop them off, they wanted me to take them to dinner. While there she was crying because she was on the phone with her mom, and her mom said quit living in your pity party, its not helping anything. By the time I left, she wanted me to clothes shopping for the girls, which I did no problem. Before I left though, I couldn't help it, I said to hell with it and gave her a hig which she half took in, I think she is starting to break a little bit.
During the early convo, she said she couldnt come back to the house, was afraid to argue with me, was afraid she couldnt trust me. I told her I undestand, we dont have to live together, dont have to be together all the time, just take it slow, very slow, and try to build on it. I also told her That the girls and I still love her very much. And that the past needs to be in the past.
Was it a mistake, quite possibly. I had to follow my heart and gut though. Felt like a small breakthrough moment. I know she is having second thoughts all around, and I was just tryong to be there for here the best I could. Please if i need it rail me. But try to be gentle, I saw a small opening and took my shot.
